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| over a month.
yeah.
Things have been going good.
yeah.
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| So in World History, we're getting into my favorite era ever, the middle ages. heccckkk yes. best ever.
I had this big long well deep inthought entry I was going to write in here, but then I didnt feel like posting it.
Yeah.
Things are going awesome right now besides Pre Cal because I hate that class
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| Woah new xanga feel when you put in an entry or something.
So today for some reason I got alot off my mind.
I can entry pictures and videos into this thing to? wow, xangas getting impressive.
It'll never top myspace like the old days when myspace didnt even exist but xanga is still just as cool because on myspace I can write a blog and men named Dianne living in Thailand could even read my thoughts, Thats just a scary thought right there. But with xanga, not many people use it that much any more. And a few people actually read it to know whats going on in my life.
Lifes going pretty good right now.
Except the fact that Im getting buried under all the piles of homework waiting to be done but yet I tend to procrastinate as much as I possibly could.
Like this World Religion project.
Its a 5 - 6 page paper about Buddhism (the religion I chose to do) and thats due tuesday I think and have I started writing any of it? Nope.
A presentation on tuesday for about 15 minutes, have I got together what Im suppose to say for about 5 minutes?
Nope
I was suppose to find a person who is Buddhist or knows information about Buddhism to come to my school to grade my group, but did I find someone?
Well technically I found many people, but are they able to come?
Nope.
Am I screwed?
Probably
So I got a hold of some new music through Apple today and its an electronic mix, not sure if Im diggin it.
So tomorrows Sunday.
Going to Church in the AM, may be going over to see Rachel tomorrow evening or something, Im not positive about that one yet.
Alot of stuff is going through my head right now but its not necassarily going through my head, kinda just floating around in the air where Im able to grasp the concept and think about it.
Im not necassarily going to write all of my thoughts down in here because thatd make me have no life.
Theres many thoughts, more than others, that I grasp the attention of more than others.
Curious about them? Ask me and Ill tell you.
Well I definately have some wierd dreams, but could they possibly be metaphorical and have some deep meaning or are they just a bunch of nonsense?
Dream is in Italics.
So Im at some beach with some friends ( I knew who the people were in my dream but I just cant remember their names right now) and we are in this kind of out house building but its not a toilet, its a jacuzzi in some shack. We're sitting there chillin in the jacuzzi sippin on some smoothies and then this mosquito about the size of a silver dollar starts swarming around us and we run outside of the jacuzzi hut and close the door behind us thinking that we left the big bug inside. We are standing outside by our cars getting ready to leave until we see the big bug. It lands on my head and people start screaming "PATRICK, GO JUMP IN THE WATER, IT GETS RID OF THE POISON" (and I dont know how, but Im wearing a karate uniform) and I start sprinting onto the sand heading for a good place to jump into the water. While Im sprinting I see my Karate Instructor ( I dont even take Karate) and he gives me a high five and says "GO GET 'EM PATRICK" so I keep running and then I turn onto this dock but the dock is on sand and in the middle of the sand is water and all these kids are in there. and Then I start to thinkin while looking at the water and I decide that I dont want to get my karate uniform wet so I just stand there and I feel the poison sinking in and I run back to where my car is and Im not able to drive and then I woke up.
This could have some deep meaning to it, and I have an idea what it may mean but let me know what yall think.
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| Its definately time for another entry.
Everythings really wierd right now.
I dont really know how to explain it but I guess I could attempt to.
Im still in the Austria remembrance zone.
It will take time for me to not think about it all the time but I keep thinking about everything.
But anyways
School = me not getting to accomplish anything.
A paper on a religion, but yet its one paper i cant manage to pull together.
Im very happy with my outside of class life.
Rachel = the most awesome girl ever.
Shes really awesome and she beats me up too.
but yeah.
Im still in a pretty contemplative mood about everything. This year everyone said would be easy and im definately not seeing that in my year. Im failing pre cal, and that straight up sucks. and then i dont like world history, i dont like spanish, and I kind of like strings.
I miss Austria
(I know im jumping around like none other on my subjects right now but hey, its my entry so screw you)
but i dont think Ill ever go back to see the people I left behind this summer due to stuff that they will never let go of in the past.
Yeah sure they may come back to America to see us, and Ill go to the airport to say hey but nothing else. Theyd like it that way, and who knows, I think Id like it that way as well.
And then comes some of my writing that ive been doing in my note book working on a project of my own.
I read it, and Im wondering even if I should attempt to consider continuing it.
is it worth it?
But im the happiest ever right now because Rachel is awesome and Im bringing back my faithfulness in my religion and keeping up everything.
Grades are gradually getting better.
Lifes good, but yet full of drama and crap.
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| So I figured it was time to right the continuation of my venting or talking or letting things go or out into the open, its whatever you want to call it.
I still remember the last look I will ever have at my great uncle yesterday. I will always remember the content, peaceful, happy face I saw that night when he was laying in his new home, his new casket.
Ive heard about this thought that runs through peoples minds when they are glancing at a loved one lying there dead and something happens and you think that the loved one moved or something.
I witnessed that thought, feeling, whatever you want to call it.
Im looking at my great uncle in the face. Looking at how much weight he lost do to his cancer, problems, risks, therapy, etc and noticing that this man was awesome. I look at his entire face, and his lips are just a straight face, no expression, its an emotional free person.
But then, it seems my imagination or vision goes incredibly wild and it looks almost like
I saw
a..
smile upon my great uncle's face.
that was the wierdes thing ever. it was wierd thinking
because i thought maybe hed just sit up and be like "HA, I totally just pulled a huge prank on all you guys"
because knowing my crazy family, thatd be something that would happen."
I miss that man.
but if i had a wish to bring him back with us.
I wouldnt do it.
He suffered alot in the past 3 years.
He started going down hill 2 weeks ago.
It was how my grandmother died 3 years ago.
Almost the same problems. They both suffered and I know they are both in a higher better place and I will see them again one day.
Thank you God for helping them out of everything.
Religion incorporated into this blog?
Yes it is, if you dont like my religion, get over it. Im not changing it for you.
I love God and everything along with him.
Thanks to all that have been here for me the past week, its meant alot.
Special thanks to Rachel for being awesome, EVEN IF she did beat me up.
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